After being in the adoption process for over a year now, I've experienced the emotional roller coaster that it can be.
But being a foster parent has brought a whole new definition of emotional roller coaster. This week I feel like we have been on one of those twisty coasters and we got stuck at the part where we are hanging upside down.
I'm ready to get down now.
The goal for children in foster care is permanency. Ideally, that would be back with their parents. If that is not an option, then it would be permanency with extended family that can support them. And if that isn't an option, then permanency with an adoptive family.
This week has brought some new developments in baby J's situation. Almost daily, we've been presented with a new potential situation for his future and it's been emotionally draining.
We aren't surprised by what's unfolded, we knew going in that there were many variables that could play out over the course of our time with him, or any child for that matter.
But that doesn't mean we aren't emotionally exhausted from the "what-if's" in his situation. Though it looks like things have stablized for now, there is still the potential that we can get a call today, next week, or next month that they are coming to get that sweet baby and move him.
And that's difficult to wrap my head around.
We love this little guy and want the best for his life. As foster parents, we don't have a lot of say in his future, so it's a lot of listening to the social workers, taking deep breaths, and praying for the absolute best placement for HIM. Not for us.
Easy to say, not so easy to accept, if it's not with us.
So, after the week it's been, I'm really excited to get to join 400 other women at the Created for Care conference in Atlanta this weekend.
I went last year and it was a HUGE encouragement for me as we had just started the adoption conference.
I'm joining seven other women from Montgomery to head up to Lake Lanier tomorrow for the conference...
Is anyone else in bloggy world going to be there? I would love to meet you!