I had written this post on a Saturday night. So many friends are walking through some difficult seasons of life that I wanted to let them know they weren't alone in the trenches.
That same night, Brian was outside grilling and felt the need to sit and just pray for our family and specifically for J-man.
Two days later, on Monday morning, I got a phone call from our social worker. Though the news she shared was not completely unexpected, it changed everything.
There have been some big things happening in the past week that I can't share here, but that have caused me to go back to that post over and over again.
Through each day, with new developments popping up at a rapid pace, I can say without question that God has been asking me if I REALLY believe what I written just a few weeks ago.
Do I truly trust He's good?
Do I believe that He loves J-man more than we can fathom?
Is He involved in every single conversation, action, and decision regarding J-man's life?
Through my tears, prayers, pleadings, and brokenness I can say that I absolutely do.
On the other side of some heavy conversations the past few days, we can see how our prayers are being answered for our boy's life in ways we never could have imagined. God is writing J-man's story in a manner that completely BLOWS ME AWAY.
I hope to one day be able to share it with you.
It is evident now that God was preparing Brian and I for these past two weeks. As with so many other times in my past, I can see the way God orchestrated events to provide comfort, refuge, and reminders of His goodness amidst times of utter uncertainty.
What a reminder that nothing is a surprise to Him. Though the events that have unfolded recently have thrown us for a loop, ultimately, they have brought us a hope for amazing opportunities in J-man's life.
The story is not yet over. The potential for plot twists and turns abound, but we are resting on today's page. It's all we can physically and emotionally do.
But, isn't that how God intended it? His grace and his mercies aren't supposed to last us for the years to come. They are new every single morning.
Friends, as you are waiting, hoping, striving, or trying to control your circumstances, may you be comforted that God has given you His mercy and grace just for today.
That portion is exactly what you need to get through the anxiety, heartache, waiting and uncertainty for this day. Nothing more and nothing less.
Striving for answers to next week's or next year's problems always end with us coming up empty.
I'm clinging to today's mercy and grace. Joining with you as we wait to see what God does with our questions, our uncertainties, and our future hopes and dreams.
As always, holding on to this verse:
Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for He who promised is faithful.