Unknowns

With almost all foster care situations, there are many unknowns for the future.  In fact, there appears to be months and months ahead of us before we know what will be the end result for our little man's permanency.  


And that is hard. 


I'm sure that the people in our lives that love and care about us have questioned whether fostering was the right decision for us. 


Heck, I've questioned it at times too.  


Fostering is NOT easy. 


Loving our little guy?  That's simple and natural.  Thinking about giving him up is not. 


But I can't say that I regret our decision to foster.  It is a broken, messy process that can be frustrating and heartbreaking.  


Yet... there is such JOY in the journey. 


It's literally been a step by step walk with God.  Daily giving all that we are holding onto over to Him.  


There are so many unknowns that I am constantly in prayer.  


Which is a GOOD thing. 


It doesn't mean there aren't times when I am anxious or worried.  I am the queen of the "What-ifs."   And there have most certainly been some ugly cry times in the past few months when I've let fear take over with this situation. 


I'm holding on to these verses- 
"Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?"  Luke 12:25-26


"Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus."  
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18